When it came time for my grandmother to move out of her house, she was getting rid of most of her possessions; she planned to live with one of her children and would not have space for the items that currently occupied her 5-bedroom ranch house. Those of us who lived within driving distance were invited to take any items we wanted that she planned to get rid of - coffee tables, chairs, dining room tables, desks, etc.
I only wanted two things.
And the tree art.
I had grand ideas of hanging the tree art in my house above the piano, where it could be enjoyed by my child, until it was time for it to be passed down again. After all, doesn't everyone want a 5-foot metal tree in their house?
When I brought the tree into our new house, I assumed that a quick dusting and some drywall screws would be all we needed to hang it. Upon further inspection, I couldn't have been more wrong.
In my child's mind, the tree was a white birch, with delicate blue and green leaves. In the daylight, it was now a yellowed, hazy, dirt-encrusted, smelly lump of metal. Years of smoking and neglect had ruined the beauty that the art had once had. The task of cleaning and restoring was more than I could tackle.
It's been in the crawlspace for three years.
Yesterday, I got it out. I have grand plans. I went to the art store and bought new primer and paint. I like to play make-believe and pretend. Sometimes, I pretend I know how to do art.
In my pretend art world, I know that I have to remove the old paint before I can start with the new, beautiful colors I picked out. Fortunately, I found this amazing spray-on paint stripper. You spray it on and wait (that's the hard part) and then wipe the paint off. It sort of works! At least, it works better than attempting to sand off all the paint, which was my original plan.
As I've been sitting in my garage, breathing the toxic fumes from the can, I've been thinking about how much of teaching is like this piece of art. No, not yellowed, hazy and smelly, but that every year we get a chance to start all over again. Every fall, we get to take off the old layers of what has been there before and start with new grand plans. Every fall, we can change what used to be into something better, something more spectacular.
And, if it doesn't work out how we hoped, that's ok! We can use a little more of the spray-on paint stripper and start over the next day. I'm terrified of actually painting the art once I get the old paint off. It's not like I actually know what I am doing; I'm still playing pretend. But, once I realized how easy it was going to be to use the spray-on paint stripper, I knew I could give anything a try.
Teaching is the same way. Give it a try. If the lesson doesn't go as planned, or you really don't like the outcome, just start over the next day (or the next hour). It's the only way to make art.
The original art in its natural form.